Monday, December 27, 2010

Forgive me.

Food for thought,
When we forgive evil, we do not excuse it, we do not tolerate it, we do not smother it. We look the evil full in the face, call it what it is, let it's horror shock and stun and enrage us, and only do we forgive it.
Fucking true isn't it?

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Merry Me.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAY. Here's a joyous song for all. Enjooooooooy. :D (Britney, I love yooooou! Visit Singapore soon. Heh.) XOXO P.S. Thank you santababy for my Christmas gift. ♥ it.

Monday, December 20, 2010

hush little baby, dont you cry.

A mother held her new baby and very slowly rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while she held him, she sang: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always, As long as I'm living, My baby, you'll be. The baby grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was two years old, and he ran all around the house. He pulled all the books off the shelves. He pulled all the food out of the refrigerator and he took his mother's watch and flushed it down the toilet. Sometimes his mother would say, "this kid is driving me CRAZY!" But at night time, when that two-year-old was quiet, she opened the door to his room, crawled across the floor, looked up over the side of his bed; and if he was really asleep she picked him up and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. While she rocked him she sang: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always, As long as I'm living, My baby, you'll be. The little boy grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was nine years old. And he never wanted to come in for dinner, he never wanted to take a bath, and when grandma visited he always said bad words. Sometimes his mother wanted to sell him to the zoo! But at night time, when he was asleep, the mother quietly opened the door to his room, crawled across the floor, looked up over the side of his bed. If he was really asleep, she picked up that nine-year-old boy and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while she rocked him she sang: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always, As long as I'm living, My baby, you'll be. The boy grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was a teenager. He had strange friends and he wore strange clothes and he listened to strange music. Sometimes the mother felt like she was in a zoo! But at night time, when that teenager was asleep, the mother opened the door to his room, crawled across the floor, looked up over the side of his bed. If he was really asleep, she picked up that great big boy and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. While she rocked him she sang: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always, As long as I'm living, My baby, you'll be. That teengaer grew. He grew and he grew and he grew. He grew until he was a grown-up man. He left home and got a house across town. But sometimes on dark nights the mother got into her car and drove across town. If all the lights in her son's house were out, she opened his bedroom window, crawled across the floor, and looked up over the side of his bed. If that great big man was really asleep she picked him up and rocked him back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while she rocked him she sang: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always, As long as I'm living, My baby, you'll be. Well, that mother, she got older. She got older and older and older. One day she called up her son and said, "You'd better come see me because I'm very old and sick." So her son came to see her. When he came in the door she tried to sing the song. She sang: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always... But she couldnt finish because she was too old and sick. The son went up to his mother. He picked her up and rocked her back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And he sang this song: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always, As long as I'm living, My Mommy, you'll be. When the son came back home that night, he stood for a long time at the top of the stairs. Then he went into the room where his very new baby daughter was sleeping. He picked her up in his arms and very slowly rocked her back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. And while he rocked her he sang: I'll love you forever, I'll like you always, As long as I'm living, My baby, you'll be.

I don't know how but this bedtime story made me teared last night. ♥

you'll always be my hero.

And it's sick that all these battles are what keep me satisfied.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

what goes around comes around

Before last night, i wanted a BIG GRAND 21ST PARTY for myself where i can share the love i have for Sexayes, my fave girls, the usual clique, the polymates and the IITSC people. A theme party where everyone can play dress up and we can take HELL lotsa pictures. A big fat arse 21ST birthday cake. A poloraid booth where guests can take pictures and write personal birthday messages to me in my guestbook. A fucking nice, private and huge place to accomodate all of us. And blah blah blah. (You get the idea - FUCKING GRAND) And then i realise, does it even matter? What's the huge deal about turning 21? You're only turning a year older and that fact sucks. Boo. Hence my only 21st birthday wish is to spend one night, just one beautiful night to have really nice dinner with friends that really matter. And i'll be more than content and blessed cos at the end of the day, these are the same bunch of people who have always been there for me in every steps that i made in life. One night, for me to express my gratitude. ♥
The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
On a lighter note,
HAPPY HAPPY 20TH DARLING. Thou we didnt do anything much that night, but i sure hope it made your night for it made mine. Meet up soon again, dearest. XOXO.
P.S. I need to fucking lose weight! Think 45kg. Gahhhhhhh. FML!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

the boy's 24th - Part 2

MORNING SUNSHINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Think we only had 3-4 hours of sleep cos i told them to wake up at 10am to be on schedule. So everybody was all cranky especially Acit. He was throwing tantrum when everyone was already up. So you know what the boys did? They put down the tent, got our bags out and carried the tent (with Acit still sleeping inside) all the way to the shore. Muahahahahahaha!
Still being cranky. HAHAHA!
We were all darn hungry after last night. So we head over to Changi to have our hearty breakfast. What else but not the famous Nasi Lemak at Changi right?
PACK, PACK, PACK
After the yummehh breakfast with all our busok face. Hah.
Due to some glitches, we had to prolong the boy from the second suprise. So you know what we did? We went to town to get the boy's birthday pressie. Yes, on a fucking sunday afternoon with that same busok face to town. And yes, we ALL havent showered since the night before.
TO BE CONTINUED . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . You'll fucking love this place! Just wait and see.

Monday, December 6, 2010

the boy's 24th - Part 1

27th November - BBQ Pit at Pasir Ris So i told the boy to bring extra clothes and swimwear cos i didnt wanna tell him anything. But he just had to be cranky and pissed at me for some reasons. Oi, it's a suprise birthday celebration what. So stop being a *&^%#@*& and just enjoy the show lar. Tskkk. *annoyed* To cut story short, he came by my place in the evening and i asked my sister to go down to blindfold him first. Then i would pick Ameir because it was his birthday too before driving the car to Pasir Ris Park. Despite asking Anggun to sit at the back of the car to keep the boys from sneaking and cheating, they still know where we were heading to. Because through out the whole time that i was driving, they went, "Eyy, we're at TPE now right." "I know where're we. You're turning left to Pasir Ris." "CB, on the right is Siglap Secondary School right. *laugh* " A-HOLE. So after i parked the car, we had to drag the boys to the pit which was about 10 minutes walk from the carpark. Best part of that 10 minutes? The boys were screaming for help. No kidding. They went histerical. Damn embarassing i tell you.
*SUPRISEEEEE*
It wasnt really a huge celebration for I only invited a handful of them although some couldnt make it that night. Booo.
Fazly's colleagues
The usual gang
'Orang Kuat of the Day' - I really have to thank them (Miza, Lynn, Anggun and Izz) for setting up the whole place so nicely for me. See all the stuffs in the following pictures? Thats the same amount of stuffs we carried from the car to the pit. Fucking crazy and damn hilarious. The boy's favourite section - Thank you for coming down sham, khai and shazwan. I owe you guys for cooking us a storm the whole night and most importantly to keep this hush-hush from Fazly. It means alot. P.S. Raihan if you're reading this, thank you for getting me Sham's nos! I wouldnt know how to reach the boys if you hadn't help.
I like this picture! Heh.
Then it was time to cut the birthday cake.
Blow baby, blow.
So sweet cut the cake together. Heh.
HAPPY HAPPY 24TH BOYS!
Soooo, guess what we were playing to keep ourselves entertained for the night? Poker? NO Monopoly Deal? NO Uno? NO Snap? NO Give up already lar cos you wouldnt believe it when i tell you. Donkey? NO Old Maid? NO Twister? NO WE FUCKING BROUGHT CONGKAK TO THE PIT!
Cool or what! Hahahahaha.
Because we had to wait for the second part of the suprise on the following day, we stayed at Pasir Ris for the night.
GOODNIGHT PART ONE.
To Be Continued...