hell week.

Guess what? I f*king crash my car last week, having the whole rear windscreen to break and shattered into pieces - literally. No kidding. (I should have taken a picture and upload here but i guess i was too freaked out to even snap a photo.) So let me just illustrate what actually happened. I had tuition that night at Fazly's place and he was working. So i decided to head home first, get the car and go over to fazly's place. WRONG MOVE. Before i left home, i had a small tiff with my mum cos my havainas snapped. I was awfully pissed! Not with her of course, but my sisters. So i snapped at her, hoping that she would 'scold' her other 2 daughters who broke my havainas but wouldn't dare admit to it. Then i simply stomped out of the house. GRAVE MISTAKE. Thing is, when i stepped into the car i knew something was going to happen. Bad bad gut feelings. Drive to Bishan was smooth. And because it was half an hour past 7 (season parking at open space), i went to park at the multi-storey carpark. For those who've taken a ride in my car, you should know that my car is relatively high. Thus it didnt occur to me at that point of time to NOT park at lots where there would be metal barrier protruding behind. Here comes the BIG MISTAKE;

• there were a few cars waiting behind me. so i was pretty nervous and scared that i would park too slow.
• hence while reversing, i didnt notice the stupid metal barrier at the back.
• because the car was reversing a lil tad too fast, the back of my car hit the metal barrier and my rear windscreen smashed.
• it really really broke into pieces. there was a big hole in the middle and the rest of the rear windscreen just cracked.

I felt helpless, lost, confused, terrified, alone and clueless. I felt so screwed and fucked up. Then i started crying profusely in the carpark. I think i cried for almost good one hour plus in the carpark. No kidding. Lucky for me, i had fazly's parents to provide some comforting words else i really really really wouldnt know what to do. Boo hoo hoo. So i drove home very very slowly. I think my speed was 50/60? Cos the moment i accelerate slightly faster, my rear windscreen would break somemore from the air pressure outside. TERRIBLE EXPERIENCE. Fortunately, my parents took it quite readily like they'd expected for it to happen somehow. Cos after i told them what happened, my dad watched his telly and my mum continued playing her bouncing ball game on the desktop. Creepy right? I had expected them to start screaming and shouting at me for being so stupid or foolish. Or at least banned me from driving for at least a month or two. But they were extremely quiet that night which really is quite extraordinary. Even my sisters were taken aback by their bizarre reactions. So yes, that explains why all 'f*ked up status' on FB. Haha. HUGE HUGE lesson for me i should say. Dont think i'll be driving as often now. I need a recovery period for me to get over the incident. Blearghhh.